Child of Coal
2009-07-13 16:18:43 UTC
So here goes:
I sometimes have dreams that, I suppose, turn out to be "visions" and actually come true. When I was younger, I would envision people I'd meet and would live out the dream to the T within a few weeks or so. I would also dream about random or mundane things that would happen, for instance, a woman in a brown parka getting out of a blue car with the paint old and worn, a block away from my school. One thing I always had back then was detail in my dreams. Now, a few years later, I only have dreams of mundane things that turn out to be premonitions that come true. They won't always be specific or detailed, sometimes they're just warnings or good advice. Sometimes it'll be something like a manga that I like to read being updated the next day. A lot of times I don't remember these "premonitions", but the ones I do remember usually come through. But sometimes they're also just dreams.
Well, today I was taking a nap. I wasn't trying to fall asleep, but I did; I'd stayed out pretty late last night so I was wiped out. In the dream a lot of random things happened that I remember but also know they're not relevant--they don't strike me as important and I get no strong feelings from thinking of them. However, towards the end of my dream, I remember being near a car--I'm not sure if it was inside or outside. I Looked around me; the sky was a cherryblossom pink, as if the sun was setting. But what was strange was that the clouds were extremely low, within reach. One of them took the form of a woman on a horse or a female centaur; I couldn't see very well. She was holding a long, thin object that resembled a spear or a staff, but it could've been a sword. I remember myself being very afraid. I was with someone, I think it might've been my father (who I am not very fond of, but our relationship has been getting better than it used to be) and I asked him why has the world stopped spinning. Then I got the feeling that everything was going to fall off the face of the planet since it had stopped spinning. I felt myself panicking outside of my dream, I mean my actual body was panicking, and I remembered that it was a dream. I woke up and my little sister, who I was putting to sleep before I, myself, fell asleep, woke up a little while after me, after the phone rang and my mom called. I find it strange that anytime something strange happens to me, like a premonition or an unsettling dream, my mom is either in the room with me or calls me from work and my sister wakes up from her sleep.
But that's not the point. the point is, what may this dream mean? Is it just a dream? Could it be another premonition?
If it helps any, I have been thinking lately that I did not want to go to see this social worker that I have begun seeing as of last week due to stress caused by my father and brother (however I was not thinking of them lately) and due to my not having a social life as a sixteen-year-old girl. This is because my mother, for some reason, is against me seeing the social worker. So every time I think of going to the social worker or having a social life, I feel sick and uneasy because I worry about my mother's opinion (although it's not me having a social life she's against, but that's more complicated to explain...).
On the other hand, it was said that my mom was blessed under the Deity Oshun (I think that's its name), and the trait of clairvoyance is typically passed through the mitochondria in that type of situation. I will not say this is absolutely true and correct, but it's just a possibility.
Finally, I'd like to request that you do not pass judgement solely upon my life situation. If you do not see any relevance between my dream and my social worker issue, then don't try to form a relevance. Just tell me it's JUST a dream or it's a premonition--only if you feel that that's what it is.
And finally, do me a favour and don't just come here to tell me how ridiculously long this question is. I already know. Hence the question title.